Today was a little different. After being in my English class for about 15 min. we found out it was cancelled, so I went to my dad's office to get the card to go get gas. At the gas station, I saw a guy from my English class walking home. Feeling bad that anyone would have to walk home and being the person I am I decide to take him home. When I get back to my dad's office he didn't like the fact that I took someone I barely knew home. Then I went to my dad's house, like I do every Tuesday and Thursday, to eat lunch and study before my evening class at 5. Well about 3:00 pm, John (one of my lab partners) called me and told me that there was a bulletin about class being cancelled, so I went to my dad's office and checked and it was cancelled. So pretty much I drove all the way to Jeff State for no reason. Since I had some time to kill, I decided to go see my Mee-Maw that I haven't seen her in a while because of my busy schedule. She talked to me what seemed like forever, as she always does. Then I came home to do my lovely math homework.
Anyways, I decided that I don't really need to be down on the whole dating scene. I have dated alot of guys in the last month and a half, but nothing seems to be there. I can get plenty of dates and for some reason the whole moral issue is not scaring too many away and they want second dates, but I don't. I'm not looking, because normally it just kinda hits me. I use to like some of the guys I went on dates with, but I don't now. Maybe my taste has changed or maybe there is just nothing there or maybe it is just not meant for me to have someone right now . That is okay with me. I'm just going to live day by day and see where that takes me. I have plenty of time to find Mr. Right. I don't want to get married or have kids anytime soon, so there is no rush! I'm not going to let this get me down because I have too much ahead of me to worry over guy issues. lol. That's my revelation.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
A little about me
I'm 18 years old. I attend Jeff State. I really do love it there. I'm a business management/ accounting major. I am a christian and a lot of my views on life come from that.
I'm single, and will probably be that way for a while. I do date though, just nothing too serious. I just got out of an almost 3 year relationship. His name was Jeremy and we have been friends for about 5 years. We still talk. Sometimes it is hard. He was my support for so long. Throughout high school he pushed me where no one else had. It helped me become who I am today. I wouldn't have ran for any kind of leadership roles if it were not for him. Those leadership roles played a big part of my high school career. He always believed in me, even when no one including me did. But as we grew older our goals changed. He turned 21 and now all of a sudden wants the party lifestyle, which is fine with me if that's what he wants. It is hard for me to put into words what he has meant to me for so long. I know how I feel about him, but I don't know if I could allow myself to be with him again one day. He wants to talk, he says he wants to get back together someday, I don't know. It is a sore issue right now. But I put it all in God's hands.
Which brings me to my next point. I am a christian. I do not attend church regularly. I do read the Bible daily and pray. I have values that I hold on to no matter what. I do NOT condemn anyone who does not see eye to eye or that practices anything that I do not agree with for myself. I do not believe in abortion, but whether it is illegal or legal, people are going to find ways to do it, some worse than others. I do not partake in sex before marriage. It has split up a couple of my relationships and well that's fine. It is something I chose to do along time ago.
I like almost everything. I'm always up for something new. I love the outdoors. I'm not afraid to get dirty by any means. I like 4-wheeling, playing sports, hunting, etc. I do like the indoors as well. I love watching football. I am an Auburn fan. Any college football game is good with me. I love reading, but I don't find much time to enjoy it. I've been known to play a video game or two. I'm really bad at them though, especially guitar hero. lol. I love hanging out with friends. I've always said I don't have best friends because of the drama, but I think I have had one without knowing it. Her name is Stacy. I love her to death. She is my dinner date most of the time and she doesn't like anyone to take her place. She is a speed demon and hence the nickname "Tokyo Drift". She has got her way out of many tickets. But it is an adrenaline rush, so I don't complain TOO much. lol.
I do not get too close to people. I have a HUGE wall around my heart. I don't let many people in. I've been hurt bad in the past by friends and family. (that's another topic all together). That is why I partake in the "don't have best friends, just have alot of friends". I hide my emotions. I try my best to be a happy person. If I am depressed or something, most likely you won't know it. Most people can not tell if I am hurt or if there is something truly wrong with me. Currently there are only 2 people who can tell if there is something wrong, even if I'm smiling. Those 2 people are my mom and Jeremy. You have to really know me, which may take some time. Most people don't stick around that long.
That's about all I feel like writing. So just ask if you want to know.
I'm single, and will probably be that way for a while. I do date though, just nothing too serious. I just got out of an almost 3 year relationship. His name was Jeremy and we have been friends for about 5 years. We still talk. Sometimes it is hard. He was my support for so long. Throughout high school he pushed me where no one else had. It helped me become who I am today. I wouldn't have ran for any kind of leadership roles if it were not for him. Those leadership roles played a big part of my high school career. He always believed in me, even when no one including me did. But as we grew older our goals changed. He turned 21 and now all of a sudden wants the party lifestyle, which is fine with me if that's what he wants. It is hard for me to put into words what he has meant to me for so long. I know how I feel about him, but I don't know if I could allow myself to be with him again one day. He wants to talk, he says he wants to get back together someday, I don't know. It is a sore issue right now. But I put it all in God's hands.
Which brings me to my next point. I am a christian. I do not attend church regularly. I do read the Bible daily and pray. I have values that I hold on to no matter what. I do NOT condemn anyone who does not see eye to eye or that practices anything that I do not agree with for myself. I do not believe in abortion, but whether it is illegal or legal, people are going to find ways to do it, some worse than others. I do not partake in sex before marriage. It has split up a couple of my relationships and well that's fine. It is something I chose to do along time ago.
I like almost everything. I'm always up for something new. I love the outdoors. I'm not afraid to get dirty by any means. I like 4-wheeling, playing sports, hunting, etc. I do like the indoors as well. I love watching football. I am an Auburn fan. Any college football game is good with me. I love reading, but I don't find much time to enjoy it. I've been known to play a video game or two. I'm really bad at them though, especially guitar hero. lol. I love hanging out with friends. I've always said I don't have best friends because of the drama, but I think I have had one without knowing it. Her name is Stacy. I love her to death. She is my dinner date most of the time and she doesn't like anyone to take her place. She is a speed demon and hence the nickname "Tokyo Drift". She has got her way out of many tickets. But it is an adrenaline rush, so I don't complain TOO much. lol.
I do not get too close to people. I have a HUGE wall around my heart. I don't let many people in. I've been hurt bad in the past by friends and family. (that's another topic all together). That is why I partake in the "don't have best friends, just have alot of friends". I hide my emotions. I try my best to be a happy person. If I am depressed or something, most likely you won't know it. Most people can not tell if I am hurt or if there is something truly wrong with me. Currently there are only 2 people who can tell if there is something wrong, even if I'm smiling. Those 2 people are my mom and Jeremy. You have to really know me, which may take some time. Most people don't stick around that long.
That's about all I feel like writing. So just ask if you want to know.
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